It makes me wonder
Why I am still alive
Yet, you have to go so soon
I feel a depth of guilt
Like I should take your place
I have made so many mistakes
~
I close my eyes
And I see your beautiful look
Gazing up at me, hardly able to breathe
And I hear your labored giggles
And I can’t understand why
You had to go
~
I take step after step
I wish you could, too
Your sleeping face so peaceful
Wake up
I see your lover’s breaking heart
Your life was full
~
Sometimes I hear your last words:
“They said there is nothing they can do.”
I made you a promise, that your family would be okay
I pray for them
I care
~
Holding your limp, cold hand
Wondering if you will ever dream again
I wanted to know about your past
Your accomplishments
Maybe meet you at a park
I know you know what your life had meant
~
Cancer takes too many, too soon
Cancer is something I cannot bear dealing with
…But I do…
I will always remember your fast beating hearts
Holding on to what is left
Gently letting go
Into it all…